A Day In The Life.......

[disneydream06]

Merry Christmas Eve to all my friends.

How are you spending the day?

I'll go first.......

Woke up, stretched, turned to turn the alarm off...
And my heart started pounding.
I've had that sensation in the past and it was always nothing.
I think I talked myself into thinking it was something. I kept feeling "off"
I finally gave up and called 911.
Cop came. First Responders came. And Ambulance came.
Vital Signs were checked. BP a little high. I hadn't taken my meds yet and can you say anxiety?
Ambulance crew hooked me up for a simple ECG reading and it looked fine.
They gave me the option of going into the ER.
I told them I work at the hospital and said I would rather not get involved with the ER if I didn't need to.
I seriously think I have Hypocondria tendencies. Add in some anxiert.....
I called work and explained what was going on and took tonight off to try and chill out.
I took Maggie out to do her duty, and seemed fine.
Now as I sit here and and write this out, anxiety?, I feel bleck. Hypocondria???
Anyway, so I am sitting here trying to relax and not think about the bill I am going to get for all that. :o

I hope you are all having a better Christmas Eve...

Comments

[sparky955]

Stress? What stress? Oh, let’s see…..primary caregiver for father….said father’s health changing….guilt over placing father in care facility for safety…full time hospital bedside professional in year 2.75 of the worldwide Covid-19 pandemic…multiple episodes of car problems…inadequate sleep for months due to caregiving needs of father before placement…

Sweeting, your body is telling you you’ve been running on empty for way too long. It’s time for you to take care of you…as in a bit of short term counseling. Speaking as one who truly knows, anxiety can be processed through when speaking professionally with an objective person.

Ambulance bill? F it. $50 a month until it’s settled. We all know they have to accept monthly payments as long as you don’t miss a month.

I think most of us in health care get a little hypochondriac. If not homicidal (joke, well maybe, well, toward hospital administrators).

Seriously, son. You’ve been holding it all inside for a long, long time & your little tea kettle is starting to tweet…..

As for me, I’m sitting in a dark, cold-ish house because the administrator of the 15-state power grid that Ohio is part of said to reduce power consumption or face rolling blackouts. But…I have a cat laying on my legs & one on my hip…we’re in double digits (11 degrees, woohoo!)… the winds have died way down…both my roof & the trees surrounding my house all stayed where they were supposed to…and I’m not in charge on a 32 bed unit staffed with 1 other RN & 2 aides & with my very own personal 16 patient load getting my 3rd admission of the night…whose very first admission order written by the ED intern is “bathe patient”. (true story, the patient was carrying livestock and I do not mean sheep…”

Take. Care. Of. Yourself. Don’t make me come over there & kick your butt.

[infinita_veritas]

100% said it better than me.

[sparky955]

You’re very kind. If you happen to be geographically closer, go kick him for me….. 😈🎄

[disneydream06]

Thank you so very much. ♥

Yeah, I am kind of wondering if I just reached the end of my rope. :(
I have always avoided taking anything for sleep, but I might break down and get some Melatonian(sp?).
I usually can fall asleep okay, but it's the staying asleep that I have trouble with. LOL........
Hugs, Jon

[sparky955]

Sleep is good. Sleep is healing.

[disneydream06]

If I could just get some at the appropriate times.
I bought some Melatonian the other day. I haven't tried it yet. Maybe this weekend when I am off work.
The only problem is, I can usually get to sleep with no problem, it's staying asleep, and I don't know if that will help with that. :o

[infinita_veritas]

Aww it sounds like a panic attack to me. Do you take anything for anxiety regularly or just in case? Maybe you should look into that if you haven't. I have had anxiety attacks that made it seem like something was seriously wrong but it was panic. I've had anxiety attacks without immediate triggers too. Your brain just suddenly sent fight or flight signals causing panic that something is wrong or that there is danger. It's something to look into. I don't think you are a hypochondriac at all. I think you are under a lot of emotional duress and it is starting to really affect you.

[disneydream06]

I haven't ever taken anything for anxiety, but I might have to look into it.

Thank you so much. ♥

[thewayne]

You're not paranoid if they're out to get ya!

Hard to say, Jon. It's not unusual to wake up with a bit of a heart race from a dream just before you wake, and it's not unusual to not remember dreams. It may have been a one-off event, the bigger question is whether or not it is the beginning of a pattern.

I hope you have a good Christmas and are able to spend time with your dad. Is he doing better?

[disneydream06]

Thank you so much. ♥

I had a quiet Christmas.
Unfortunately, I slept most of last night away, so when I laid down in bed today I was awake after 2 hours. :(
I am seriously considering stopping in the morning and getting some Melatonian and seeing if that will help.
I stopped up this afternoon to see dad, as long as I wasn't sleeping, and he was taking a nap. lol...
I have to stop tomorrow to pick up his laundry, so hopefully I will see him then.
Hugs, Jon

[wickedlittletown]

Merry Christmas dear *hug*

[disneydream06]

Thank you so much. ♥

[armiphlage]

eeeek!

*hugs hugs hugs*

[disneydream06]

Thank you so much. ♥

[cmcmck]

Hugs

Do that family of yours ever give you a little time to take the pressure off?

[disneydream06]

Thank you so much. ♥

Sadly, not really.
And if they did a family Christmas this year, I wasn't even invited. :o

[kaishin108]

It sounds like stress! I mean with your dad and all, it would not be a wonder.

The only other thing I can say is that happened to me once, and yes it was pretty bad and I think it had to do with a food reaction.

It is hard to know though, you sure did the right thing!
Maybe follow up with your regular MD or PA soon?

Hope you feel okay now.
Hugs, Helen

[disneydream06]

I seem to feel okay one minute and iffy the next.
Some anxiety I am thinking.
I just WISH I could get some sleep. I think that would help a lot.
I can't seem to get more then 4 hours at one time.
I bought some Melatonian.
I can usually get to sleep no problems, but I just can't stay there. I am not sure that will help with that though.
HUGS.....

[kaishin108]

Maybe you should think about some yoga or meditation? Sometimes I do this yoga breathing I learned when I can't sleep. And it is re-assuring that my main yoga teacher told us that it is just about as good as sleep.

Or maybe some relaxation recordings? There are a few on my meditation app that I can just drift off to.

Sending good thoughts!

[disneydream06]

Thank you so much. {{{HUGS}}}

I have a hard time shutting down my mind to meditate. :o

[kaishin108]

You don't have to shut down your mind. Just watch your thoughts. You could think of them as clouds floating by. Watch but do not attach to the thoughts, just witness them.

[disneydream06]

Sounds so easy. LOL.......

[kaishin108]

The thing is people put to much pressure on themselves to 'empty the mind' when that is just about impossible.

I have this funny little thing I started doing where I listed the letters of the alphabet and wrote down a positive word for each letter.
Like A is ____ (some positive word), then B is ___ on and on until I fall asleep. Thinking of positive words that start with a certain letter makes me tired. I wonder if that makes sense but it is surprising how well it works. If I get to Z (Zen), I start over with the same or different words.

So basically I just try to trick my mind out of worrying or dwelling on 'icky' stuff. Stupid minds of ours!

Hugs, Helen

[disneydream06]

I wish I had an on/off switch. :o

[fairy69]

Sweetie, you had a panic attack. Trust me, I am the Queen of them. You are dealing with so much with your father, etc. so it makes the most sense.

[disneydream06]

{{{HUGS}}}